Tanmay Bhat Tears Up While Talking About Life Post #MeToo, Says He¡¯s Suffering From Depression
Talking for the first time after being under scrutiny for his inaction in the complaints against comic Utsav Chakraborty during the #MeToo movement in October 2018, Tanmay Bhat has revealed that he is suffering from clinical depression. He feels paralysed, he said adding that he doesn¡¯t know how to pick himself up and come out of it.
In a series of videos, he revealed what he has been going through since October. He said he worries he if he will ever be able to get back to who he was or if he will be able to "operating to my potential".
¡°After everything that happened in October, I'm mentally checked out. I feel almost paralysed and unable to participate socially, online or even offline. A big part of my self worth growing up as someone who looked like me became my work,¡± he said.
¡°For most of my adult I life I worked at a company that I was trying to build. Letting the office go, all the people who worked with us, having to say good bye to that took a toll on me mentally and physically. Which finally came to a headway around the end of last year.¡±
He said that he has been diagnosed with clinical depression and doctors have told him to do something about it.
¡°A lot of you have been asking fair questions- why don't you move on, why don't you rebuild, but for some reason, I have just watched something that I have worked for last part of my adult life come crashing down. I have just been staring at the rubble going 'what now?¡±
¡°I don't think I've been strong enough to be able to pick myself. It's been a few months since the doctor told me to start medication. I honestly sometimes get super worried that this state of paralysis is permanent. I sometimes feel I might never get back to being who I was or operating to my potential.¡±
He, however, thanked his fans for extending support.
¡°It's nice to know there are still people out there who are rooting for us and me. I am still clueless about any answers to questions like when will I be back and doing what. I don't know. I'm still feeling extremely paralysed to even put out this message because in my head no one wants to work with a depressed comedian and that's an oxymoron. But at some point I just got to get up and start fixing this stuff. I owed you guys a thank you. That's all for now.¡±
¡°I'm a bit of a mess. I don't know when I'll stop being a bit of a mess. But when I'm less of a mess, I will owe it to everybody who has written in being supportive. Especially those who've seen this mess up close. You know who you are,¡± he captioned his post.
Last month, comedy group AIB announced that Bhat will step down from the post of CEO and the company's YouTube channel is "dead for the foreseeable future".
