India's First Transgender Designer Saisha Shinde Says She Was Mentally Abused By Her Boyfriend

India's first openly transwoman fashion designer Saisha Shinde, formerly known as Swapnil Shinde, introduced himself as her to the world. Born male, Saisha said that she never felt like a man. In the last months of 2020, she finally fully understood that "I am a trans woman."

In a social media post, she said, "Saisha means a meaningful life and I plan to make mine an exceptionally meaningful one".

She is currently featured on Kangana Ranaut-hosted reality TV show Lock Upp wherein she opened up about being in a mentally abusive relationship.?

"Even I was abused in a relationship but it wasn’t physical, it was mental abuse on another level. He made me feel like I am sh*t," she said.?

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"He used to stand outside my door and just wait thinking that someone will come and I’ll cheat on him. And, let's say if I cheat on him, he'll catch me red-handed and he will use it against me. He used to climb on the terrace, go on the pipeline, stand on the pipeline, open the blinders of the bathroom and see slowly if I am mast********, to use that against me."

"Why can’t you mastu*****?," asked another contestant on the show Payal Rohatgi.

She answered, "Because that’s the reason then that I don't want to have s*x with him. Back then, I thought maybe he was saying the right thing but I was never happy in there. Physically, I was never happy at all. I used to always wonder, 'kya mujhe samajh hi nahin aa raha hai' because I was a woman inside who was having s*x with a gay man. Obviously, something was wrong but I told myself that I am gay only."

Earlier on the show, Saisha Shinde had revealed that when she consulted?psychiatrists, they suggested that she should not undergo the operation because it was 'wrong'.

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"So the first three psychiatrists said that you are very handsome. Why are you doing this?," she said.

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